Friday, January 11, 2013

radiation therapy

Just wanted to let you know all is well.  We are back to survival mode this month, so not a lot of blogging.  Radiation is Monday through Friday until the 23rd.  It takes about two hours out of my day, and most of that time is commuting to the hospital.

They wondered if I would get nauseous because they are close to my stomach, but not shooting directly at it.  I did come home and throw up an hour after my first treatment.  I now take medications before I go in and that seems to do the trick.  

I am starting to feel some fatigue.  When I wake up I feel like someone has taken a giant glue stick to my back and stuck me on the bed.  Also my eyes feel sealed with rubber cement.  But I get up eventually.  And I found that if I keep my shoes on until the boys get to sleep, I can resist the urge to crawl into bed until the evening. 

The radiation techs said that the radiation will destroy what's in its path, but normal tissue cells have memory cells and will repair themselves.  Cancer cells don't have the same memory, they just die (suckers!).  They say the side effect of fatigue is from your body repairing the damage they are causing.  I have asked how long it will take for the tumor to die.  They said slowly because it is melanoma.  I haven't felt a difference in the tumor in my armpit (this is the one they are not radiating). 

I am also back to the old night sweat situation.  I wake up drenched and chilled in the middle of the night.  Often several times a night. 

These all sound like complaints as I'm reading through them.  That wasn't my intent.  I am going to say the worst of it is that in the middle of the day as I head to the hospital, and in the middle of the night as I wake up freezing cold, I feel like a cancer patient again.  I am reminded of my situation. 

It's mostly a mental thing right now. 

I am still trying to process what happened this year.  I have some thoughts on 'resolutions,' and sadness about how not all crappy things can be resolved.  Done, checked off the list, finished, etc.  They linger and we live with them.  Cancer will be one of those things, they will never stop looking for it in me.  

I am working on a photo album of 2012 for my blog.  What a year!  I think if 2012 was a game, I won!!! 

10 comments:

  1. I agree--you certainly won this one!

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  2. Alisa - you are amazing. I am often astonished at how positive you remain while being simultaneously honest. I can't imagine how you've mustered so much strength, but I am continually inspired / touched.

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  3. You totally won, no doubt about it! You're a winner!

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  4. You are such a fighter, I love it. Let's beat 2013 too.

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  5. Good luck with the radiation therapy, Alisa. You are so inspiring!

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  6. I'm sorry you are so tired... But it sounds like it's a good sign! Let's go out for your birthday when you feel up to it. I love you.

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  7. You are the toughest chick I know. Hang in there. Know you are so loved!

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  8. Happy Birthday, Alisa!! Thanks for being our inspiration. We love you.

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  9. Hi,

    I have a quick question about your blog, would you mind emailing me when you get a chance?

    Thanks,

    Cameron

    cameronvsj(at)gmail.com

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  10. Alisa,
    You inspire me to live each day fully and with much hope. You are so loved.

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