Kind of an anniversary of sorts. September 21st. In 2007 it was the day I found out my cancer had spread to my lymph nodes and was considered serious. Saddest day. In 2010 it was the day they gave me a clean bill of health. Happiest day.
I can't even describe the high I was on. I felt like there was nothing I couldn't do, nothing I wouldn't do, nothing to hold me back, ever again. Like I had all the time in the world.
Well, if nothing else, I lived like that for 6 glorious months. I hope I get to do that again.
My family puts on a little film festival this time every year and my entry was going to be a cute little show of our cancer free celebration at Disneyland.
My story book ending.
Of course I didn't expect the evil villain cancer show up again. BOOOO!!!
The little part I talk to the kids on the couch is a year ago today. I love their reactions to the news. I get a weak cheer for the no cancer news, but watch them light up at the mention of Disneyland. I also love their personalities reacting to the news. James, who would plug his ears when he was 6 at any mention of cancer, is maybe the only one that really gets what any of this means. He thinks about it silently, hiding his face so we won't see any tears. Luke, who insists on buttoning up his polo and tucking in his shirts, is worried about missing school. Sam's shirt is nowhere to be seen and he is ready to take off with the plane today. Are you kidding him? "Who cares? Let's go to Disneyland today!" Love my little guys!
Thanks for sharing the movie, Alisa. Some of those film festival entries are hard to get access to! I think this one's oscar worthy.
ReplyDeleteThat was wonderful. Of course I'm crying like a baby. Alisa, you have such a beautiful little family. I hope and pray more than anything that there will be many more trips to Disneyland in your future.
ReplyDeleteWhy does cancer even have to ruin film plans? I mean, didn't it get the memo that it had made a final exit? I love your movie and you and all your cute family. I don't love cancer.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I've just been to Disneyland and I love, love, love Disneyland. It is always fun to check in on your blog and get another taste of your tantalizing talent. You make me want to live in the moment.
ReplyDeleteOh my friend! Watching that brought tears streaming down my face and appreciation that you are still here and the miracle that is! It makes me appreciate so much all that I have for the realization that it can change in a moment. We love you and have the same wish for you to just live!!
ReplyDeleteoh my word, I cant tell you how much I love your family! Way to make me cry! We totally love you guys and the inspiration you are!!!!! Did you get an invite to my blog? Just making sure..
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh.. just like everyone else tears are flooding my eyes. You and your family are awesome and so loved by so many. Cancer sucks and will not will this war with you! You are a miracle and an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteYou guys are an awesome family. Love the movie. Even more the second time.
ReplyDeleteAlisa, first of all, how cool is your family that you have film festivals? We mostly just hang out...which makes my family sound so much less cool:)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, moving movie. Wow. You are amazing on your ability to poignantly show how precious life is. Thank you for reminding us.
Your Dreams will come true and you will stay cancer free we because you dream and wish upon a star and because you are so strong.
ReplyDeleteWe Love you and thanks for sharing
I love the video. I'm thinking it's going to be a happy ending from now on.
ReplyDeleteI loved watching that movie. So much love in your family! Love it!
ReplyDeleteThis is Awesome...we love you guys and wish you the bestest things of all!!!
ReplyDeleteSam & Family