Friday, October 7, 2011

last day of chemo

Very emotional today as my nephew was sung the "Happy Last Day of Chemo" song by the nurses on his unit.

I cried because I am so proud of him. Because he was such a trooper. Because he has a great future ahead of him.

I cried because he will have to use crutches to walk to his car. I cried because he can't have his leg back.

I cried because his family will now get to go back to a somewhat normal life. I cried because people think you can go back to a normal life, but I know it will be hard to find normal again.

I cried because I am so happy for them. Because they can close this chapter. I cried because I'm so sad for them. That they ever had to get mixed up in this mess.

I cried because it's not fair. Because life can be so hard.

I cried because there is such a thing as cancer. I cried because anyone has to have chemo ever. I cried because I can't have any chemo.

I cried because once they sang the song to me. I cried then too, although I didn't know why I was crying.

But mostly I cried because my sister cried. Because she has had to deal with this for such a long time. And she will be dealing with cancer and it's after effects for a long time. I cried because she has been so strong. And just because I love her.

So many reasons to cry today. But HOORAY the chemo is over!


  1. I cried when I read this and saw the video- I have been affected by cancer in many was as well and I don't like the word. Hooray for your nephew for being a strong boy. My heart goes out to your Family, to you, your parents, your sisters family- It's hard on the Family to watch the people you love go through this, you understand it so much more because you have actually experienced it. Prayers are with you always. It's ok to cry!

  2. I cried because every word is so well written and speaks to my heart. I love you all.
    Aunt Kathy

  3. I cried too and I wasn't even there. You were right about everything, as usual. Beautiful post Alisa.

  4. Thanks for the post Alisa (and the pics too!)

  5. Beautiful pics and post. So happy for Steven and all.