We are home tonight, recovering from a very long week. I have gained 23 pounds of water dispersed throughout the body, there is fluid in my lungs, thrush on my tounge, I have no appetite, explosive diarrhea, my skin is red like a sun burn and itches everywhere.
I know these are good signs, it means my body is attacking my body, this means my body is on high attack. Through the high fevers, rigors (uncontrollable shivering,) and confusing times, I could hear myself say, we can do hard things, we can do hard things, and often times I wanted to say, SHUT UP!
The End -
Alisa
Transcribed for you by Josh Linton
YUCK, is what all of that sounds like! I am so sorry. You can do this and you can do hard things! :) You are such an inspiration Alis! You are in our prayers and thoughts every day!
ReplyDeleteThis is a VERY hard thing to do, you can do VERY hard things! We pray every waking hour for you, and love you very much.
ReplyDeleteEw. Sometimes you just have to endure. Just like my kids in a scary movie, it is possible to endure with your eyes closed. I hope you can get some rest!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're home, but so sorry that you feel so terrible. You can do hard things, but that doesn't mean doing those hard things has to be fun. Love you all!
ReplyDeleteYou rock. It's just 23 more pounds of you to love!!! Get well soon! Xo
ReplyDeleteI cannot even begin to imagine. You give me chills just in describing what your going through. I am so glad your home- there is something about being home. I hope you can manage to get some rest in between all that's going on. Get well and know your being prayed for, fasted for and loved!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you can be home and start to feel better. You and your family have been on my mind and in my prayers constantly and will continue to be every day.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you are home. I hope your body continues to do it's job... and you can do hard things, you can, you can.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing strong person, I have always seen you that way. One that is up for the challenges ahead. Keep up the good fight!
ReplyDeleteI am so grateful to be able to reply here. Dumb me, it took quite a bit of looking to figure out how. I was Paul's roommate in college and a companion in Norway. You may remember me.
ReplyDeleteI went through cancer and was supposed to die by 93%. Since I'm writing this, I made the 7%. So far, so good.
I recently sailed a small sailboat from Miami out in the Atlantic ocean north of and east of Bahamas, south to Cuba, around east end and on to Jamaica. It was about the hardest thing I've ever done. Scary, too. Sailing for days, high winds, 12-15 waves, then night comes. I'm so tired I sometimes sail in circles falling asleep. Sailing in the black of night, wind howling, I keep saying, "I can do this! I can do hard things." We can do hard things. We can't drop anchor and hop off for awhile. We just keep doing hard things because that is what the situation demands of us. We just keep doing hard things.
My love to you and family as you continue doing hard things, because, after all, there just really isn't any other acceptable alternative.